Hi Carolyn thanks for getting back to me.
I don't think I have got to grips with it yet - there are so many things on my mind.
Firstly I've spent a lot of my time and energy with my former GP as the first thyroid function test they did on me was high and they did not put me on any treatment. They did however refer me for an ultrasound on the thyroid and repeat the thyroid function test. The hospital carrying out my ultrasound did not write in my scan report to my GP that the gland was bulky on one side and the thyroid function test came back within range. So that was the end of that and the GP would not do any more thyroid function tests anymore. I left that practice.
So I've gone to a much smaller practice and they agreed to retest my thyroid function and test me for antibodies which were elevated. TSH was fine so they didn't test my FT4. My TSH has been high since then but I've been sticking with the same GP now as 2 others at the practice have not accepted the high antibody titre I have.
I'm in a lot of shock with this condition still and I've found it very hard to understand everything - I still do find it hard especially with the more technical side to things.
Also because I'm hypothyroid I still have this idea that I'm supposed to be overweight with a puffy face, puffy hands and feet and thinning hair. I have none of that and although I've been tested negative for diabetes and coeliac I've found it hard to deal with the "hypothyroid" label. People who know me look at me and say, "well you look ok" and so I'm made to think that I am ok. I don't mean to brag to anyone on here but I still weigh 7 stone and 10 pounds. That is how light I am. I get stopped by men on the street asking me if they can have my number - they're young enough to be my kids and I'm nearly 30! It makes me sick to know I still look so good with an illness that makes me feel so awful. :((
I also left my job with this illness and I bumped into my old boss in the street. It was intentional as I knew she would be out on her lunch break and I felt very good about myself as the dose I was on worked for a bit. She suggested we go out for lunch together - this was someone who used to have a real problem with me! I'm not going to go to lunch with someone who made me leave my job.
I also seem to be deficient in a lot of things - I've been told by my GP I'm deficient in Vitamin D, low on Vitamin B12, ferritin and folate but I've been told that I may be deficient in zinc, selenium and magnesium! So now I have to maybe consider taking supplements for these as well as continuing with my T4, iron and Vitamin D!
I haven't got a clue how to manage all of this and I don't even know how I'm still alive with all these deficiencies going on!
I'm feeling really overwhelmed and I don't know how to make myself better with all of this going on! I've even considered stopping my meds as everyone I know says I look fine and why would I need to take them. It's made me think that they're right.