Its been a couple of weeks since I posted on here but after a pretty bad week with the “IBS” (awaitin colonoscopy to confirm) I thought I would post.
It seems my mental health has taken a huge hit from the ibs symptoms. My leaving the house is getting worse, I was wanting to attend somewhere this weekend that not only meant lots to me but also to the person closest to me in life. I wanted to be there to cheer them on however due to my worries and panics of being stuck in a car and the flare ups getting worse or not being able to find a toilet in time, I’ve had to make the hardest decision to not go. Its knocked any sort of “I can do this” feelings away and can feel myself slipping back into that really dark place.
I know that the anxiety can make symptoms worse but it seems the symptoms make the anxiety worse too now. I think I find it so hard that unless you are going through this or have come out the other side people do not understand. You get branded as lazy, told to just get over it or that its all in your head. Yet how can they tell you that when they are not in your body or mind?
I’m not sure what I wanted from this post but I felt like I wanted / needed to get it down somewhere as the frustration with this stomach issues are so stimatized that its hard to talk about it.