Hi, I'm 16 and have dealt with IBS-D for three years.
I have never had an accident but fear I would to the point of a year ago or maybe a little more I wouldn't leave my house unless it was for school (would throw tantrums to avoid going anywhere) I know embarrassing but it was the only way for me to stay at home.
It's 1:20am (which is why this may seem a bit jumbled up 😂) and I'm wide awake at the worry of this lunch I agreed to go to Tomoz (I said yes without thinking which is good but also disastrous for my anxiety) I could call it off as there is a few of us going but I still really want to make some more friends (only really have one).
Going out even to school (only a few minuets away from my house) is really difficult I hate to say it but I have adjusted to constantly being in ready to cry and curl up mode. I'm scared of being caught short (if u get me and I'm worried about random bad things happening (family being hurt and I'm not there) I just need an opinion my councillor said that she thinks I suffer from an anxiety disorder but I'm not convinced as I'm am very loud with my close friend.
My parents have given up trying to make me go out and will pretty much always say yes to anything I wanna do or go that's outside, sometimes I feel like people think I'm lazy and it makes me feel horrid on a daily basis but I over think too much and then the day is gone.
My day consists of my awareness for IBS and only that.
I'm just sick and tired of it and I just want to make friends but it's hard I don't do well with new people either.
I've had panic attacks, close calls with my IBS, anxiety related crying (uncontrollably) and more stress related stuff like stomach pains, lightheadedness, headache and stuff like that
Sorry it was a long post thank you for taking the time to read it. I'm gonna try and go bed now lol