I done started to relapse

[TheBooG]

Tell me why I surround myself with people who I think have my best interest but in the end I’m getting backlash. My fiancé just told me to fuck off. I’m half a bottle in on pain pills and just thought I might have my last words to only group of people that cares

[SoberDrunk1]

Look into a 12 step program. NA/CA welcome all forms of addicts. Find a meeting and start looking at similarities.

[TheBooG in reply to SoberDrunk1]

Thank you, greatly appreciated

[Creighton]

I have been to A.A. and did the 12step programme. I remained sober for 2 years and the this pandemic broke out and all my a lot of my support mechanism ie church going out to shops normally stopped. With my adhd and anxiety I have found myself on few occasions picking up the bottle again. At moment kept it to few occasions but scared of where it will take me. I still work the steps and pray to my higher power. But it’s the hurt I have caused my family as they have seen me in the past at my worst. Any suggestions, forums etc I could join during this time. Thank you and may you find a way through your journey.