Hi, I had a heart attack in December 2015 and one stent. Had another stent in May 2016 and another two earlier this month. Cardiologist found new ischemic disease.
Am home from work which feels very safe. Having thoughts that I won't be able to go back to work with two hours each day commute.
Can anyone help me or am I just having a confidence dip? I have a job I love but can't imagine ever being well enough to go back.
Sorry this is so negative.
Hi it must be tough to have more stents fitted.
Don't be hard on yourself for now.
I had OHCA last July with one stent & im struggling to come to terms with it. I'm told another HA unlikely but then how do they know? GP didn't even spot HA coming when I reported chest pains week before.
So every ache & pain I have now scares me :-(. Most are musculatskeletal from 25mins CPR but I bet some are 'phantom' from anxiety.
So in comparison sounds like you are doing well all things considered.
I wanted desperately to go back to work because that where it all started and I thought that if I returned all would be complete and it would be all over. BUT although I could do my job well I could not do it in the same way. I had lost the feeling and importance of my job and within weeks of returning I worked towards early retirement. Eventually doing this retiring at 62. Best thing I did for myself and my job really. BUT we are all different but we all have these anxieties and you are feeling the same. Home is not a safe zone. You wellbeing is a safe zone. It come with time and confidence. Ask maybe if you can talk to someone about your feelings. I did and it did wonders for me. My nut nurse I called her she just listened to me. Was great because loved ones don't listen they just add more questions and worries and you need to talk without baggage.
Here's the thing - your job will mean nothing if you're dead. More importantly take care of your health first, then deal with your job situation. For me if I didn't have my health, nothing else mattered. Deal with that first and then you'll figure out the job thing. Yes, it must be tough and frustrating not being able to function like you used to be able to. It has been for me. I've had to change my priorities - took care of my health first and then I deal with my job. I'm just rambling now so I'll wish you all the best in taking care of yourself and hope you'll be able to return to the job you love too.
This is but a kink in the road. We all want to get better and see improvements, sometimes we look for those improvements too soon or expect them to happen too quickly and then get despondent and down when something weird happens. I went back to work 8 weeks after my ha in October 16 as I could see my confidence disappearing with every day I was home. It was a phased return but it wiped me out, slowly I coped better each day. I thought I was pulling it together, but during a doctors appointment 2 days ago I completely broke down. The doctor thinks I'm trying too hard to be normal and I should think about reducing my hours. It's that kink in the road, but your health, my health is more important. We have people that love and support us and don't want to lose us.....we are survivors ...and that's what matters, but we didn't survive purely to go back to work. I wish you all the best in your recovery, don't beat yourself up about any kinks.
Ask your gp for sertuline
I have a one and a half hour commute each day that I can't do I'm waiting for redeployment or medical retirement
I have been off work for eight months
Sudden pains, Rosuvastatin
It's the not knowing which makes it difficult
