My mum Rosemary is really deteriorating, I have been going to her after work most days, she was very upset at the start of the week as she had an 'accident' in bed & soiled the sheets, thats never happened before, I felt so sad for her and didnt mind sorting things out, but wondered if it is the way of things to come. Seems to have been ok since.
But good news on 2 counts, she will be going into the National Hospitlal for neurology within 2 weeks (stil awaiting admission date), for 'tests'...what will they decide she has I wonder?
And secondly, we will move into our flat in mid December, so I can care better for mum. I hope that I can look after her for as long as possible, if that means putting my job on hold too, so be it. Mum got upset with tonight saying 'you're not doing anything' - I tried to remind her that I have cleared her house, sold the house, found us a new place to live, am caring for her, working at a hospital, not sleeping much, have an underactive thyroid myself, and so her saying that I am 'not doing anything' wasnt fair! But I know her anxiety levels are off the scale with the anticpated hospital stay and moving home, I shouldn't have lost my temper with her.
I am just very tired today. And on 11/11/11 its the 2 year anniversary of my dads unexpected death, so its been a tiring 2 years, as mum went downhill after he died, Hey ho. The blogs here are really helpful, and I have already been in touch with some lovely people in similar situations, which really means so much. Thank you all for posting and communicating, sometimes we think it isnt of any use to another, that it is helping us, but I am sure we would be surprised at just useful anothers writings can be.
Smile on all.