So this day has begun, C is fed up already wants a pillow over his face, me to feed him loads of pills, then asked for a chocolate bar, how screwed up is that.
I feel I would willing do this for him, but don't want the consequences.
I will sit here awaiting his calls, coz I can't be bothered to do anything else, my house used to be clean and tidy, but doesn't feel like it anymore and I can't be bothered.
I'm sinking, I can't pick myself up like I used to be able to, why, I just want to be a "normal" person, go back to work, have some money to spend, feel comfortable.
I feel so guilty for feeling like this, he C must feel much worse.
The day will pass whatever it brings, I know I will get through it I always do.
But I'm just fed up with it all.