Yesterday it was Fred's funeral, I said goodbye to the man I'd spent more than half my life with, I had wondered how I would get through the day, but although I did shed a few tears I was relatively dry eyed, maybe I'd already done most of my crying. Unfortunately our vicar was rushed into hospital Sunday, our undertakers had gone to great lengths Sunday evening to get a replacement, sadly tho the tribute wasn't quite how I would have liked, unfortunately that's life tho, it doesn't always go to plan.
I am hoping now that the horrors of the last few years with PSP will gradually fade and I will start to remember the happier times again, during the PSP years I have really been having trouble remembering that I used to be happy, although I know I was! So maybe now the good memories will come back and the awfull ones will fade.
In the last 18 months I have lost my lovely Dad, Dear Mum and gorgeous husband, I thought it was a lot to cope with looking after them, now it's a lot to cope with having lost them all.
I must now thank everyone here for their support, I very much feel like I have taken more than I have given, I joined the site just over a year ago, and without a doubt received more support and knowledge here than from ANY professionals, and I feel like I have made some wonderful friends. This site I so addictive, I will still read the posts from my wonderful friends, hopefully now and again I can give some advice, but hopefully you won't have to put up with me ranting and wingeing. Without you I think I would have gone over the edge.
Lots of Love