You are my sunshine my only sunshine you make me happy when times are grey. You'll never know dear how much I love you... please don't take my sunshine away...
My dear husband took his last few breaths Friday in the sunshine. Then a cloud passed overhead and he was gone.
Oh Goldcap, I am speechless and heartbroken for you. May your dear husband rest in peace, finally free from this evil disease.
Sending the largest hug possible and so much love
Lots of love
Heady
Thank you heady. I am at a total loss. I do not know what to do with myself. I want to just pull the covers over my head and cry. Ironic I can do anything now and I do not want to do anything.
Dearest Goldcap, if you want to pull the covers over your head and cry, what is stopping you? Like you say, you can do anything now, so what's wrong in grieving for you husband, in the way you want to? Don't let others or protocol, dictate what you do, especially at the moment. Grief is a very personal thing, it has to be done and it has to be done the way that suits you!!!
Please know I am there for you , even though the miles and sea separate us. You and me go back a long way now, you were probably one of the first I got to know the name of on this site. With your help, I got through that first frightening stage and over the years I have always looked out for your responses. I am still here for you, the same as the rest of our wonderful family.
Sending as much strength as I can to you across the ether.
Lots of love
Heady
Oh Jayne, I am so sorry. My thoughts are with you and I am still in that numb no-mans-land state myself. I hope it gets easier but not so far.
With love
Vicki
Goldcap sending you a big hug, so sad, but at least he is in a better place away from this horrible PSP. As Heady says grieve in your own way. Yvonne xxxxx
So sorry to hear of your loss, as Heady says pull the covers over your head and cry as much as you want, a brave face won't help anyone, least of all you
Thinking of you
Debbie xxx
Lost for words so sad for you xxxx
So sorry to hear the sad news Goldcap, even when you are expecting the inevitable the pain is just as difficult to bare. As the others have said, pull the covers over your head, cry and cry, let all of the pent up emotions flow out. I do hope you take time to grieve in your own way and don't be pressurised by others to speed the process, it is important for you to take time to go through the process until you get to tbe stage where you remember the good times you both had together.
Love and hugs
Kate xxx
Oh goldcap I'm so sorry, even though we feel like we are already grieving through this nightmare when this eventually happens you can't explain the loss and real grief you feel, I'm thinking of you and send you a loving hug....
Love Pat xx❤️
I am so sorry for your loss...but on the other hand, when I pass over, sitting in the warm California sun being held by the one I love, that is the way to go. Your husband got it right. Suffering is over. Peace. Stay in touch. please.
I was singing that song to my guy Friday morning, as I often do. Oh Jayne. I am sorry. You have lost so much. I wish I could hug you and then bar the door so you could cry undisturbed. Rest, my dear. And hang on. You have so many friends you have never met, and we are all thinking of you. Love, ec
That's a beautiful picture, Jayne. You cared for him so well. He was lucky to have you.
I am so sorry. God bless! Mary B
Jayne I am thinking of you at this sad time. Jane xx
Bless your heart. Your pic is SO touching and dear. Grief is the hardest thing in the entire world in my opinion. Ohh I know it's true, those who've departed after a devastating illness are in a much better place and no longer suffering but nothing has ever splayed me out like grief and I've endured some hard stuff in my life. The good news is, it really will get better with your friend- Time, and the love and care of those close to you. No matter what, always remember this one thing: remember what your dearest hubby would want for you, his beloved wife. He'd want you to be happy and healthy and to carry on because that is LOVE. I'm so very sorry for your loss and grief, from another American haha, (we're rare on this forum,) here on the East coast, saying a prayer for you, truly, Sheila
I'm not a writer and don't often post but I watch always. But I had to say how your post touched me. Such an appropriate song and one of our favourites too. Now he's free of suffering the sunshine you shared over your lifetime together will be your comfort. Virtual hugs from me
Such a beautiful, tender picture, I am so sorry for the loss of your darling, my thoughts are with you xx
So sorry Goldcap on the passing of your dear husband. Such a horrible disease. Please now take care of yourself. Big Hug xx
So sorry Jayne, lovely photo, here's another hug. Peter.
So sorry for your loss but it sounds like his passing was beautiful. My mum died yesterday morning after huge fight that went on for 8 days. Just horrific.
So glad they are both free now from their world!
Carolyn
So sorry to hear of your sad loss. A lovely photo to look back on and remember the good times. Grieve the way you want and not how others dictate. God bless. Marie
so sorry to hear of this - i cried for my dad the day he passed away and a bit the next day only... it affects everyone differently - i read somewhere that we mourn the loss of our loved ones when they are alive - when they pass away, there is a mixed feeling of the inevitable loss but peace that they are not suffering anymore
best wishes for you and your family
So sorry to hear that. Grieve in your own way. The tears will stop eventually but we are never ready to let a loved one go.
Love and a big hug, from Jean xx
I'm so sorry about your loss. It's always so sad to see these posts. We're all in the same boat. I hope you can now find some peace knowing that your husband is finally at peace, the suffering is over. Take care of yourself. Xx
Oh im so sorry for ur loss... releived for ur husbands end to this disease. Thoughts are with u xxx
Bless you and your dear, departed husband. Sending warmest wishes and a big hug.X
So sorry to hear of your loss of your dear husband. May time heal your heart
Deidre
Beautiful photo of you both.So sorry for you xxxxxxx
Oh Goldcap, you made me cry and how wonderful to see your dear, dear husband.
I am so, so sorry for your loss.
Denise X
Oh my what a beautiful song and picture!!! My Bill left me 3 months ago much the same way. A musical therapist had come to sing to him the night before he died. At 6 am he took 2 quiet breaths and he was gone too. I turned to look out the window and turned back and I am sure the angels came and took his soul to the Lord!!! I am weeping for your husband and my Bill now. Weeping so hard again. You did so much for him. All that was possible. God love you now. Your husband is finally resting. Finally.......
Resting..........The Lord be with you also. Many prayers.
Sue
Dear Goldcap,
I am so sorry for your loss !...
beautiful picture of you both ... so tender!
I am sending you my love xx
I love all of you so much. Thanks for your kind words, thoughts, prayers & hugs.
Heard this song today and just about destroyed me. So these lyrics are dedicated to everyone who has, is, or will lose their loved ones to PSP/CBD/MSA
One less bell to answer
One less egg to fry
One less man to pick up after
I should be happy
But all I do is cry
Oh, I should be happy
(Oh, why did he go)
I only know that since he left
My life's so empty
Though I try to forget
It just can't be done
Each time the doorbell rings
I still run
I don't know how in the world
To stop thinking of him
'Cause I still love him so
I end each day the way I start out
Crying my heart out
Oh, one less man to pick up after
No more laughter
No more love
Since he went, oh he went away (he went away)
Why did he leave me
(Oh why, why, why did he leave)
(One less bell to answer)
Now I've got one less egg to fry
One less egg to fry
(Oh why, why, why did he leave)
And all I do is cry
(One less bell to answer)
Because my man told me goodbye
(Oh why, why, why did he leave)
(One less bell to answer)
Somebody tell me please
Where did he go, why did he go
(Ohy, why, why did he leave)
Tell me, how could he leave me
Oh Jayne. I will hug my sweetheart a little tighter for that. Sending love to you, too. Ec
So very sorry to hear this. Your loss is Heaven's gain.
Dear Goldcap I just read your post and its....Tuesday...I am so sorry . You are quite a striking couple, even with the effects of PSP weighing heavy on your husband.
I do hope you are able to manage these next few days, weeks of transition . I cannot imagine this will be easy ....but remember we are hear for you. God bless you on your new journey.
AVB
When thou liest down, thou shalt not be afraid: yea, thou shalt lie down, and thy sleep shall be sweet. Proverbs 1:24
Now the Lord of peace Himself give you peace always by all means. The Lord be with you all. II Thessalonians 3:16
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