Hi, I have been having a really rough time recently, just can't cope, tears flowing, screaming continually. I haven't got time to breath, then as if things couldn't get any worse, the rest of normal every day life steps in. Who on earth as time for that????
A niece of my Ex died of Cancer aged 44. Stepchildren problems, as if any of us as time to be bankers as well! The dog has been very poorly over the last few days, Vet doesn't think it's one of my socks, just a viral infection, poor little lad didn't eat or drink for two days, can just about manage a bit of chicken now, if Mummy feeds it to him. Still, cleaning up after him and wiping his bum, is a piece of cake, far to use to doing that these days.
I don't know if S is worried about something, but he has started falling again, at least once a day. Even at the peak of his falling, he only just managed that! I don't know where he is going, but as soon as I turn my back, he's off. It's quite frightening, I return to where I left him and he's gone, either flat on his back, or in another chair, or this evening standing in the doorway. Last night, put him to bed, sat up chatting with my sister, enjoying a glass of wine, when I went to bed, found him on the floor, the wrong way around, who knows how long he had been there! Has gone to bed tonight with a lump on his head from where he got up from eating his dinner and went flying. I thought it would be safe to leave him, whilst eating, for a few seconds! Wrong again. When I ask where he is going, he looks at me as if I'm stupid, but can't tell me. So far he has got away with the falls, only this little bump on his head.(I am touching lots of wood, he takes warfarin!) but his luck must be wearing a bit thin by now. His movement does seem a bit better at the moment, he is transferring fairly easily, do I get his walker back out and risk a big fall, or has any one got the address of a good company to get some heavy duty restrainers!!! Not sure who needs those the most, S to keep him still, or me to stop some serious violence!
Lots of love