Took D to the cardio was told his pacer is working 100% of the time. Guess that is what keeping him with me and I can't bear the thought of being without him. He is getting weaker, heart or PSP, I don't know. Still walking fortunately but having to dress him a lot. Supposedly the rotten co is sending a aide tomorrow. They are giving me a very hard time. Sent an idiot last week I think, or might have been the week before. I usually keep our dogs in a room she won't have to go into too but 2 of them got out I am thinking Don opened the door. She jumped on our kitchen counter and started screaming almost broke his glasses. Stupid idiot. My poor dogs just stood there looking at her. Their expressions were like WTH is she doing. Am loosing track of time and days which mortifies me. His dementia is getting worse and his appetite is declining. What more can I say. Today was our anniversary 57 years and if he leaves me I know I will not be able to live without him. He is the love of my life but I don't want him to suffer.