Just had my two hours, that Marie Curie provide once a week. You know the one I really enjoyed last week! Disastrous this week!!!
Popped in to see my Mum in the home she is in, then went to the supermarket. Thought it would be great to mooch around on my own, but I have forgotten how to! Spent the whole time worried about the time, ended up with 45 minutes to spare. So like all good carers, found a quiet road and sat and balled my eyes out!
I know it was my own fault, I know I should have planned it better, taken a coat and worn better shoes, so I could have gone for a walk. But the constant time watching, where is the relaxation in that.? if I had gone for that walk, I would have only got upset, because S cant do it anymore. How do you get use to this? The learning curve is very steep! This respite is meant to be doing me some good, at the moment, my hips hurt, due to wandering up and down the Mall on Wednesday and now I am totally depressed and feel so lonely, from today's effort. Is it worth it?
Lots of love