So, I'm off to Devon in about 10 minutes but not staying with Mum and Dad this time as there are some jobs that need doing and it's easier if I'm "off site". However, tomorrow when Mum is at the Hospice, I get to spend a few hours with my Dad and no doubt we'll go out for some lunch and I CANT WAIT!!!
I am torn between feeling really selfish for thinking like that but also can't remember the last time Dad and I had time together when we were't "speaking in hushed tones" so as not to upset Mum or quick conversations when Mum doesn't want to speak. I've missed this SO much but you cannot help but feel guilty for needing/wanting that space and normality - I can't even begin to imagine how it is for those of you caring 24/7!
I will be spending Saturday with Mum and hope to make her giggle again although i believe I'm required to go clothes shopping with her and I know from Dad, that can be a challenging exercise but I don't care, if it helps, I'll do it and hopefully be as patient as I can be.
As always visits to see Mum are filled with some anxiety as I know she has "progressed" since I last saw her a few weeks ago but its also a time to give her lots of cuddles and tell her I love her.
Can't wait, can't wait, can't wait to see my Dad and give him a HUGE hug