Thank you everyone for your words. The recurring message in all your response is to relax, give myself some time and space to take in ALL information and don’t rush. I can do that. But for now (and that may change so I’m allowing room for this to evolve) I still think getting it out early is my best option . I have no interest in penetration so I think (and this is just my guess) that the impact will be greater on a TOP. And please, I am open to opposing opinions because only through dialogue and hearing other’s experience can we fully be informed. I did a 23&ME to see if I have that BRCA gene. It hasn’t arrived yet. My testosterone is also very high..(1300 & 1100...on 2 separate tests a week apart). Thankfully, I had a therapist way before this. I’m going to a support group tonight. And I’ve been consuming cruciferous vegetables especially broccoli sprouts. Please excuse my jumping from topic...still spinning. One thing is for sure: I have too many years and dreams to let this take me down.