I am 17 weeks into pregnancy and I don't feel that pregnancy joy at all. I can't be bothered to do anything. I have to force myself to go about each day and fake smile to avoid unnecessary questions that I don't want to answer. I have 7 year old too and suffered post depression without help or support and it seem I fully didn't get rid off it. Also not long ago got promoted and now I feel like I won't get any further than that, money worries too how I'm gonna be when I go on maternity leave. Also have driving test to pass. And feel like I'm on my own against it all. I want to enjoy this pregnancy but I feel it more like burden. We didn't plan it. I had biopsy done before so I had to take my protection out and while I was healing got pregnant by accident. Didn't wanted to go with termination as I have done it in the past and felt I did deserve cin3 for what I did.
I am so emotional that almost every time I try to speak with my partner or even think about it I burst in to tears.