I really need some help understanding what's going on in my body.
In late April I had been at 25 mg for a while with mild PMR-like symptoms. Then, one day all my symptoms went away after I made a big positive life change.
I then tapered down to 6 mg over a three month period without any problems. (No need to tell me that was too fast. Just hear me out.)
All this time during the taper I was feeling totally fine. No symptoms at all except some mild arthritic-type paid for a fays in my hands and feet each time I dropped the dose. But that always went away. I never had any muscular or PMR-like pain during this taper.
However, once I hit 5 mg I started getting major fatigue, headaches, depression, a strange nausea 24-7, and diarrhea multiple times a day. I learned that these were adrenal insufficiency or low cortisol symptoms. So I waited two weeks to see if they would go away. They didn't.
I then went up to 9 mg for about a week. But nothing got better.
So I went up to 15 mg , and a week later still I was not feeling better.
Then I went up to 20 mg and after a few days I finally started feeling better.
During this entire experience I never had any muscular symptoms whatsoever.
I only started getting muscle aches later, what I was back up at 15 mg, and then 20. My rheumatologist believes that this is most likely prednisone myalgia, not PMR activity.
The other thing that happened when I went back up to 20 mg on the pred is that I began experiencing severe psychological and cognitive symptoms. They were so bad I sought professional help. I couldn't think straight. I had mania and delusions. I could not get basic tasks done. It felt like I had dementia. I couldn't even read. I love reading but I would read a sentence over and over and not be able to understand what it said. I could not concentrate on anything.
For the first time in my life, I had suicidal thoughts. I saw a therapist but I could barely participate in the sessions due to the cognitive difficulties.
After two weeks like this, I made the decision to go back down on the pred. Despite all the advice from everyone here to taper slowly, I could not live with these side effects. So on August 20th, I began a taper again.
I am now down to 6.5 mg (alternating 7 and 6 each day) and I am feeling so much better. The muscle aches have gone away. The cognitive and psychological problems are gone. I feel like myself again.
I have my first appointment with an endocrinologist in two weeks on October 25, and I do not plan on tapering anymore until then. (Remember my problems began last time only when I hit 5 mg).
Now that you've heard my story, here are my questions...
1. Why did my adrenals not come back online after waiting two weeks at 5 mg (I was feeling fine at 6 mg)?
2. Why did I have to go all the way back up to 20 mg before the adrenal insufficiency symptoms went away, when I was fine at 6 mg before they started (and feel fine now at 6.5)?
3. Why did I suffer such extreme psychological and emotional problems at 20 mg when I went back up after my first taper down to 5 mg, when I did not experience them previously before the taper? (I had been averaging 30 mg since January?)
4. Has anyone experienced anything like this? Why did it happen?
5. When and how should I start my next taper? I'm afraid to go below 6 or 6.5 mg now given what happen last time, because I never want to go back up that high on pred ever again. I really was contemplating ending my life the side effects were so bad.
Thank you for any help you can offer.