Today finds the 100,000 teeny, tiny red pustules, that covered 60% of my face yesterday, reduced to 100,000 innocuous red dots. Unsightly still, however, they pose no immediate threat to anything, except my tattered and bruised ego.
I'm starting to believe the "Universe," actually enjoys taking the piss out of older women! Is it not enough that we are forced to grapple emotionally, mentally and physically with the very process of growing older? While at the same time, we contend with wrinkles, sagging, bagging, spreading and drooping! Must we also have to endure the indignities, hideous symptoms and side effects of strange and puzzling illnesses?
Seriously?
If the Universe is a female; she is either a "bitch," or she is our ultimate numen; with a phenomenal plan to strengthen us to a point, where we are infinitely indestructible.
For what purpose? I know not.
However... for now, I have more important things to contemplate; like finding the right outfit to go with this hat!
I've been researching my symptoms lately, I feel so crappy, and I remember coming across a rash like you describe in a related condition.. another vasculitis, I think.
Ohhhh no, mine problem was self induced!!! Brought about by using a facial hair remover, for "sensitive" skin of course!!!! It was entirely my own fault. Vanity, and looking like a Wookiee, clouded my better judgement.
PS - Sorry you feel like crap... better days are coming!
Of course the Universe is female! You should know full well if it were male it would be in a right mess and nowhere near being completed!
And yes, we are indestructible......well someone needs to be to pick up the pieces left behind by men...and kids...and dogs..and.......life in general.
As for worrying about wrinkles et al, as you reach a certain point in life you realise that it’s whats inside that matters - okay we still want the outside to be presentable, but we are not subjected to the scrutiny that younger woman are subjected to, particularly in this modern world.
I dress as I want to, I go places I want to, I can listen to what music I want, read what books I like, if I want to stay up all night I can, if I want to stay in bed all day I can. I couldn’t do that in my 20s,30s 40s, 50s or even 60s.
I may not be as spritely or a beautiful as I once was, but I am my own woman - and nobody ain’t going to take that away!
If you can’t find an outfit to match the hat then send it to me - I have just the thing! 👗
DL thanks for your meaningful post. The edginess of Pred is helping me get to a place of self acceptance. I have little tolerance for ageism that seems prevalent in our superficial world. Hopefully, wrinkles, PMR and life experience will lead to wisdom.
Apologies, as I know my posts seem somewhat self indulgent and boarder on "self pity" and negativism. That's just my style... at the moment. It's meant to be a bit tongue in cheek, however there is always a dash of realism and what I believe is "my truth." I am vain and have a healthy ego. I do not deny either fact; I actually try to embrace that, and poke a bit of fun at myself at the same time. We all end up in the same place, so it really doesn't matter the road we take to get there.
No apologies necessary! I love your posts and pics, Where do you find those great pictures ? I am vain but becoming less so because I can’t get Botox or fillers on Pred and realize I look younger than my years anyway. Osteoporosis results in flats, not high heels like pre illness. Ended a relationships with an Aregentian who was 7 years younger than me in June, diagnosed with PMR 2 weeks later! Now I’m dating men a bit closer to my age.
We all approach this life changing situation in our own way and need to be as compassionate as possible with our fellow suffers (and everyone else),
Hahahahahaha! Yesterday, DorsetLady suggested a 1950's hat, with a thick black veil, to cover my hideous face! I posted the photo of the hat that I will wear when I go to Waitrose today... if I can just find the right outfit!!!!! (Kidding of course... I'm not leaving the house like this!) : )
I'm going for the universe is making us infinitely indestructible. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right? I think it's healthy to poke a little fun at ourselves - not good to take ourselves so seriously. There's a poem about growing old and wearing purple with a red hat. I'll have to find it.
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too much going on - how much to taper after last flare?
Is 30 mgs to 20 mgs too much taper?
Just Started Pred. Am I Expecting Too Much Too Soon?
to sleep perchance to dream !? too much is OTT 
