Hi all, new to this forum but looking for help and advice with managing pain, I have had back problems since 2010 ish... and so far I have had L5/S1 disc prolapse which required emergency discectomy as my spinal cord was crushed twice in two months. L4 and L5 went black and had to removed and S1/L5/L4 fusion. I learnt this year I have more discs in my Cervical protruding and require fusion on C6/7. I still suffer with a lot of lumber pain, joint pain and muscle spasms and wonder whether its worth going through this surgery again??? I am lots of medication for the pain and have to look after three small children and I am 38 and I now have severe depression and with that and the pain and just life in general, I recently hit rock bottom and took an overdose (please do not judge) to no avail other than a trip to A&E, where the lovely head physch doctor advised me to try and get onto a forum like this and try and find others similar and how they cope......forever hopeful that I can resume some kind of happy lifestyle instead of waking up each day dreading the day!!!!