Hi everyone, it's been a little while since I posted here , so apologies for that. Some of you may remember my last post I was in hospitsl 5 weeks ago and had a tumour removed from my spine and was doing not bad until 2 weeks ago when I took a really bad bug and was back in hospital again, this has left me so weak and very little appetite, not sleeping well. I have been off work I'll since last May as I was in so much pain , initially being treated for sciatica and going through every medication available from my GP until I was in hospital for the full month of September last year and scams etc showed the tumour. I was eventually out on morphine , I am now off the morphine though and take dihydrocodeine if I need it. Anyway my problem is I havnt been out for almost 6 months and only then to go to hospital, yesterday I received a registered letter from my work asking me to go for a meeting tomorrow at 11.30 am, oh my goodness I have been panicking so much since then at the thought of going out , I phoned the work and was unable to speak to my manager so explained to her deputy my problem and she said she would let her know and she would call me back but I'm still waiting. I am so stressed at the thought of it amd feel so ill, I'm so close to tears and don't know what to do ..