Pain pain pain,
Was supposed to have discography followed by injection, but it has been postponed twice, as I write, I am a tremendous amount of pain, cannot take part in activities with my children due to excruciating back pain and permanent numbness in my right leg.
It's like a nightmare that you can't wake up from isn't it? I wish I could tell you that everything will be okay, but I can't. I hope your discography and injection help. Mine didn't but I have learnt to live with my pain. Your children may not have you to go shopping with or play in the garden. I made myself indispensable in other ways. I used to lie on their beds and help with homework, I even rewrote my eldest's dissertation! We watched movies together. I used to rest all day and get up just before they got home from school. I was always there. Now they are older and they are all so caring and kind. They saw that I always did as much as I could. I have a friend with MS, and the house and her children revolve around her. She expects them to give up their lives to care for her. They are 12 & 14 and full of resentment. I never did that to mine. If you handle it right then your children will love you for all that you struggled to do so don't give yourself a hard time. The fact that it bothers you shows that you're a better Mum than most children ever get. Good luck and my thoughts are with you
Beautifully said and so true. Thank you for sharing this!
Thanks Janepepper,
This will be the second discography and injection I had done, the first one lasted three months before the pain got unbearable, the surgeon then did a fusion that lasted for 18 months,after which,I have been in excruciating pain now for 11 mths. This time no fusion just discography and injection into the disc, hoping it will relieve the pain if only for a short while, I don't expect it to be a long term solution, I have come to,terms with the fact that I will always be in pain.I will try to be as best a dad I can be for my teenagers boy older, girl youngest.
Have you had an MRI sweetheart? Sounds like ruptured disk's? xxx Mitzi
Hi Mitziblue,
Thanks, I have had an MRI and bone scan, shows a weakening, surgeon doing discography to get a better look.
Fedupwithmybackpain, you are already the best Dad, because you care enough to question it. Your children are blessed to have you. BTW, I'm on the same path as you, discetomy, spinal fusion in 2008, excruciating pain, bladder damage etc etc. On 18th August, I am having a lidocaine infusion. I am completely petrified, mainly because my pain consultant gave me all the statistics and then sent me and my husband home to think about it. Also because they only do it at the orthopaedic hospital first thing on a Monday morning, when "a lot of doctors are around"! (Yes, that's just what I need if I have a bad reaction like a heart attack, an orthopaedic surgeon standing by with his Black & Decker!). But I've decided to give it a go because she does keep warning me that if I carry on taking the amount of morphine that I take now, that one day it will kill me. Someone asked me if the worst case scenario was that it would kill me. I said that the worse case scenario for me would be if it didn't do a thing! But, sometimes, I let myself think what it would be like if it worked, if I was pain free? I don't know if I'm remembering it correctly, but just think..........mind you, if I wake up pain free the next morning, I'll probably think that I died in the night! Heyho! Fingers crossed!
Hi Janepepper,
Thanks so much,for your kind words, I feel your pain, I do hope and pray that your op goes well also,we need all the help we can get. I am sending you positive vibes,I was on morphine, had to stop as I got hooked, changed to Tephine, but I take the medicine sparingly as it affects me mentally so I watch it.We must hang on in there. Fingers crossed.
Know just how you are feeling,but I have found nothing helps we have to learn how to put up with the pain I myself have had 2 discectomies,fusions,& support put in my spine now the pain is worse than before the ops,the ops carry a big risk that a lot can go wrong,which happened in my case,been offered another discectomies which I have refused,so until something else comes along will have to cope with things as they are,I wish you luck & hope you have better luck than me
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