I saw the Oncologist today, even though it's Bank Holiday Monday, and will start my chemo two weeks today. I don't know if I'm glad or not. I am glad that I have some definite date to work towards, as I feel more confident with my 'Plan'. I've been feeling in limbo up to know since I saw the surgeon who confirmed the tumour was malignant, which was about two weeks ago now. As I wasn't sure where the chemo would be, I haven't had anyone to speak to to get help and advice, except this group, so have been feeling a bit lost. I have to be very organised and efficient at work, and this does tend to run through into my home life, so I like to know what's happening and when. I've felt so lost, as I had no idea when things were going to start, so haven't been able to plan my return to work. I'm not ready to drive yet, I have to wait a couple more weeks, so won't be working before I start my chemo. Ho Hum.
We're off to Cornwall on holiday in June, and they have managed to organise the chemo, so my good weeks will be when I'm away, so we're thrilled. We booked this last October/November, and I would never in a million years have guessed I'd be juggling chemo sessions with it. Life has a way of keeping you guessing doesn't it.
Anyway, I've got to have a CT scan and a kidney function test before I start the chemo, and I'm off into Manchester at the end of next week to get a wig. Whether or not I'll actually wear it, we'll see, but I think I'd feel more confident in the early days with one than without. Sorry, seem to be rambling on a bit at the moment, so I'll clear off now, as my Husband has just made me a cup of tea, which he's started calling my teamotherapy!! If only it was that easy......
Love and Best Wishes to everyone,