Scan results

[Ossett]

Just got home from seeing oncologist,

I was sent last week for a scan, because my ca125 as been going up from 17 in September to now at 53, I'm on avastin.

Good new is I'm stable there's just 1 lymph that was 2mm and now it's 5mm so not much growth.

So staying on avastin till April and they will look again then.

I told her about not sleeping and crying a lot and she said sounds like I'm depressed going to see a psychologist to talk,

Also I put in for early retirement at work and she said she would back me up and said she thinks it's a good idea, so a good meeting even though I was in floods of tears lol x

[Katmal-UK]

Sending you a big hug xx Hope yr feeling ok xx

[Ossett in reply to Katmal-UK]

Yes relieved, but definitely am depressed, oncologist said I might need tables to help but I would like to see if I can just talk to someone first.

[Hidden]

Hi there, we all feel tearful and down from time to time so don't go beating yourself up. Its okay not to feel okay. The scan results is stable and that isn't bad at all. The Avastin does make you tired but if you are not sleeping then you do need meds. I couldn't cope without a nights sleep. It would also be a good idea to speak with someone, I am sorry you were tearful today but it happened in the right place and your oncologist will make sure you are looked after. Are you happy retiring and will it help you cope with life better ? If so then it is the right thing for you and have a plan on what you will do on retirement.

[Ossett in reply to Hidden]

Hi yes it took me a long time to make my mind up about retirement but feel relieved now I am doing something about it, I find it hard to talk to anyone about my illness it's funny though I can type all day to the lovely people on here it's always reassuring and positive.

I love my oncologist to bits she really gets me.

Trish xx

[Ruthie62]

Sending love. I retired from work early last year and it’s given me the time to focus and attend counselling more regularly. Both have really helped, and even though I’m back in chemo, it’s easier knowing I’m not worried about work. Xxx

[Ossett in reply to Ruthie62]

Hi yes I'm just hopeful that it goes nice and easy don't know if I can go through with it if it's not.

Trish x

[Alifit]

Hi,

I have always felt that counselling is a good thing to do - I have had anti depressants in the past - they worked for me, but talking therapies have a real place in the vast cannon of holistic therapies.

I use an app called Headspace too - it teaches a kind of meditative mindfulness.

Do you have friends that you can talk to? Or maybe there is a group of ladies in a similar position as you that you can join. Ask your CNS, they may be able to help.

Hope you feel better soon, keep in touch here though.

Ali x

[Ossett in reply to Alifit]

Hi yes have lots of friends and poor husband lol I can talk to, think I'm just scared if I start I won't stop, and I won't be able to climb out of the depression.

Trishx

[Yoshbosh]

Hi Ossett,

I’m glad your scan shows you are stable. Good luck with the early retirement. I was wondered whether I could apply, but I’m only 40, so it would be *very* early retirement for me!

Vicki x

[Ossett]

Yes no age limit when going through I'll health, I will let you know how I get on.

Trish x

[Cropcrop]

I’m so pleased you’re stable, that’s such a big relief for you. I think you’ll find the counselling really useful, there are lots of us who have benefited from it, I had some CBT and it was really good in helping to come to terms with what had happened and it trains you to think differently, it’s really good. Good luck with the early retirement plan, it’s great not having to think about work in the big scheme. Big hugs and love ❤️Xx Jane

[Ossett in reply to Cropcrop]

Thanks for your lovely supportive reply it means a lot,I will let you know how I go on x

Trish x

[chrissapam]

am really pleased...think we all deserve to be depressed! Are you on steroids? Xxxx

[Ossett in reply to chrissapam]

No not on steroids, I love my oncologist she said last night that she is a very aggressive fighter for peritoneal cancer,and she will do all she can to get me many more years, can't say better than that can you.

Trish x

[Joanie12]

Hi love, just seen your post, sorry you are feeling so low but I'm sure we can all relate to that. I saw gp a month ago feeling the same, don't know whether KT was Xmas etc that made me reflect more but I thought anti depressants might help. Anyhow after a long chat we decided I also needed to talk to somebody so I arranged to see a hypnotherapist at st James, through the Robert Ogden centre (it is in the grounds ast st James) they offer 6sessions and I must say I feel a lot better for talking and doing some relaxation techniques, it might be worth a shot of you have a wait for the psychotherapist. I honestly think a lot of us suffer from PTSD after being given the news of our illness and it takes its toll on our bodies but certainly our mental health. Keep your chin up and take whatever help is offered. Good luck, hugs xx joanje

[Ossett in reply to Joanie12]

Yes I am going to have to learn to take help when it's offered,my oncologist said that I was very good at putting a front on but it's not always good for you to do it sometimes we all need to talk.

Trish x

[SuzanneKau]

So glad your scan showed stable. Talk therapy has been so helpful in the past. It’s important to seek help sometimes. I hope you’ll feel much better in time. Hugs

[Ossett in reply to SuzanneKau]

Thank you for replying I do feel a little better today,having made the decision to talk to someone.

Trish x

[chrissapam]

No that is lovely! Good for her and you!!! Xx

[judyved-US]

So happy for you, Trish. I think you'll feel better after speaking to someone about the way you're feeling. Also, good luck with the prospect of retirement. I'm sure that would be a positive step. All the best.....Judyved

[Ossett in reply to judyved-US]

Thank you so much for replying, yes I hope I feel better, having a good day so far, the sun is shining although it is still very cold.

How are you doing x

[judyved-US in reply to Ossett]

I'm doing ok. Having third line treatment.....taxol and avastin. Seems harder this time,but I'm tough so will get through It! Snowing to beat the band right now, so very dreary. Can't wait for Spring!

I hope you feel better and better!

Best to you.....Judyved

[Sue-m]

Sorry you down. I would see a councillor. I did a few years ago. It helped me. I also went to local hospice - day therapy unit. I live in wakefield. Do you happen to live in Ossett West Yorkshire. Maybe we could meet up. Sue

[Ossett in reply to Sue-m]

Hi I used to live in ossett, but now in Wakefield,yes it would be nice to meet.

[Ossett]

Hi yes got your number now in my phone so I will text you later for a coffee, do you live in Wakefield, you might want o delete your lat message with your phone number on as you may get lots of people ringing you lol

[Sue-m]

Hi. I having problems with my iPad and iPhone. So sorry for delay in replying. I live at Crofton. That's why I suggested texting. Sue xx