Hi, I was supposed to be back at work today following a 'problem-free' hysterectomy in January. Fast forward to now and am about to go to GP for another sick note. A mucinous ovarian cancer was found in one of my ovaries and I haven't yet been formally staged or have a plan for treatment. I had to have a second lot of completion surgery to remove the omentum, appendix and check the bowel. I'm so scared. I feel like I am letting down my family, friends and colleagues. I know we all have to die sometime but I want to live for a while longer. No doubt many of you have children, I have 3, I want to live to see them grow up. But I am so scared of what will happen to me and what they might have to go through. My father died of non-Hodgkins lymphoma when I was 20. Growing up with that was rubbish and I was helpless to help him. So many of you sound so strong and you have been through a lot, I don't know how you do it. I don't know what to do or where to turn. Everything I'm reading about ovarian cancer seems so uncertain and so final. I need to be strong for my family but, on my own, am just weeping all the time.