Maybe u noticed when I wrote couple days ago that I am ned .

Now I just am so worried about future ,recurrence,everything.

My dr told that I am cured now and my oc maybe never recur ( because hiw small ja type it was) and I am so sad . Why? I shoyld be happy and full of life.

I think have I year or 20 year left 😫 I should not think things like these , even if I never had OC. .

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  • Hello, I understand how you feel, I'm in a similar position. I think that when you are undergoing chemo you are proactively fighting this thing that risks taking over. When you are told you are NED and just have to live it's quite a transition to make. I'm trying to relax but haven't got there yet. I'm sure these feelings are very normal.

    You are certainly not alone!

    Hugs, Lisa x

  • Ahhh thank you for reply ❤ Yes I think that this is normal but so hard to relax .

    Maybe this going to be easy and I can live happy life !


  • It's perfectly normal to feel this way and you're not alone. I found some good info on the cancernet site which is worth a read and may help


    We are here too,

    Clare xx

  • Thanks C ❤

  • Hi Clare, I found the website very helpful. Thanks for that take care Cindyxx

  • You are sad because your connection with the medical team is now not as tight as it was, It is normal to feel lost or abandoned at this stage. If there is a Cancer support centre near you go along and you will find some people to allay your fears. There is also the Ovacome Helpline on here to ring for medical advice. So what I am saying is dont feel so alone, you have been through a lot and it will take a while for you to get back to normal.

  • Thanks S. Very helpfull ❤

  • Hello Daniella,

    I was/am still kind of trying to get used to the fact that I am ALONE now. When I had cancer there were medics on hand,but now it's different. I feel like someone took my training wheels and pushed me down a bloody hill. I cant tell you how to deal with it but I can say is that we cannot live our lives waiting for cancer to come back. By the way that last sentence is the one that I try to get my head around. We are in the same boat, but we will reach land very soon.

    I hope you find a way of dealing with this, everyone's way is different, and there is no right or wrong way to deal with it. I am feeling very emotional at the moment, highs and lows......

    Thinking of you


  • Thanks for this lovely response ❤

    Maybe time heal things and we can take our lifes back .


  • It is early days and you are understandably worried. I think we have to accept that life will never be the same again but we can make the most of what we've got. I am getting on for three years down the line and some days I forget about cancer and other times thoughts come back and hit me. At one point I thought the longer I go the greater the chance of it coming back!!Then I thought they only want to see me every 6 months and will sign me off after 5 years so the odds must be getting better. I also didn't realise just how long it takes to recover from surgery and chemo. Only now do I have days when I feel 100 percent. So all I can wish for you is that you can enjoy life and until it comes back, if it does, there is absolutely nothing we can do about it. Big hug to you!

  • Thanks , big thank you❤ lovely. Very helpfull too.

    Wish all good to you !

  • This is one of my favourite statements -

    Worrying about tomorrow steals today

    I know it's easy to say but you're at the point when most women hit that brick wall. A release from the medical support makes us fearful of the future but it's only normal after all you've been through. I had the same and as soon as my Onc told me it was normal I felt much better. He told me to keep talking to him about it and to be sure not to let it fester.

    Try to keep yourself active doing things you enjoy spending time with people you love that will fill your head with happy thoughts and in time you will settle.

    It's fantastic news you've received so go enjoy your life and try not to let this chapter in your life hold you back xo

  • Thanks ❤ lovely message !

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