Back on track.

[Suzanne333]

Hi ladies.

After my melt down the other day after seeing my surgeon, I'm pleased to say I'm back to my positive self. Well, getting there.

He didn't even tell me anything bad but I think I was so strong for so long that I was due a melt down. A good cry can be quite relieving. I've told myself that my illness is my new normal and that if it returns then it's a flare up. It will be dealt with. I plan to keep myself healthy and strong and keep my mind focussed and positive. Easier said than done sometimes.

I'm just soooo thankful for all you lovely ladies on here . When I read positive stories, it just does me the world of good.

Just wanted to check in and say thank you 💐

Suzanne - here's me at my scan yesterday. Got to keep smiling 🙂

[Lyndy]

You look amazing Suzanne ..although that gown is never going to make it on the cat walk, your positivity shines through!

Xx L

[Suzanne333 in reply to Lyndy]

Hi Lyndy.

He he. I think I put it on back to front. It's not my most flattering look. 😂😂

Xxxxx

[Katmal-UK]

Hi Suzanne Great photo, though as Lyndy says it's never going to make it onto the catwalk!. Glad to hear you're positivity is returning. Keep smiling! Kathy xxx

[Suzanne333 in reply to Katmal-UK]

Hi Kathy.

I think it might become a fashion item -NOT. he he.

Hope all is ok with you. Xxx

[Mrs_Atko]

Brilliant photo hun! You're looking great! Fab to hear you're feeling more positive...it's always ok to have a good cry, but you're coping with everything so incredibly well. Much love xx

[Suzanne333 in reply to Mrs_Atko]

Aww. Thank you. I think we all cope as best we can. It's so hard sometimes but we are all fighters. 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻 Hugs. Xxx

[Hidden]

So glad you are feeling positive and the photo is great X

[Suzanne333 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. Sometimes it's hard but positivity is so healing I think.

Hope you are ok. Xx

[Hidden in reply to Suzanne333]

Exactly, I'm fine thank you xxx

[GBIRVMIC]

Whoohoo! That's the spirit be positive and kick its arse.. we have no room for the Alien... well that's what I call it! Lovely pic of you.. next Summers fashion statement eh!!! 😂😂😂 Love Michelle x

[Suzanne333 in reply to GBIRVMIC]

He he. I think those gowns could become a fashion statement. We probably all wear them enough. Lol. They're quite comfy. 👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻😂😂xxx

[Hidden]

Looking good!, stay positive and keep that lovely smile, as for the gown being on wrong way, I always put mine on that way, I hate it when open at the back!! My turn on Wednesday.xxx

[Suzanne333 in reply to Hidden]

Hi

I never know what way round to wear them. I just make sure I tie it up tight. 😳😳😳

Hope you get on ok with your scan. Xxx

[Yoshbosh]

So glad you are feeling more like your normal self. Love the photo! Nothing like a hospital gown to add a bit of glamour to your day 😆

[Suzanne333 in reply to Yoshbosh]

You certainly Can't beat a hospital gown. I might design a new type of gown. Something a bit more cheerful. 👍🏻👍🏻😀😀xxx

[Yoshbosh in reply to Suzanne333]

When I was admitted with neutropenia, I hadn't got a nightie or pjs with me, so I was offered a delightful tent...sorry, nightie to wear. It was bright pink, the size of a beach shelter and with the obligatory 'reveal all' split at the back. It was a joy to behold!

[Suzanne333 in reply to Yoshbosh]

He he. When I went in for my second draining of ascites they gave me a bright pink tent too. 😂😂😂

Was huge. Like a marquee. Lol. Xx

[Yoshbosh in reply to Suzanne333]

I'm fairly sure several wedding guests arrived wondering where the reception was being held... 😂

[Suzanne333 in reply to Yoshbosh]

Ha ha ha. Could have accommodated many many guests under that gown. 😂😀😀😀xxx

[LittleSan]

Rocking that look Kathy! xx

[Suzanne333 in reply to LittleSan]

He he. I might wear it to a Christmas party. 😂😂😂😂xxx

[Hairlessbeauty]

Beautiful smile Suzanne!

Stay positive. Its hard, I am in recurrance and melting down each day. But we are fighters and we have to stay strong!

Hugs

Janetta from Hairless Beauty

[Suzanne333 in reply to Hairlessbeauty]

Hi janetta.

It is hard. Very hard. I know I have a high chance of recurrence. I've not even finished treatment yet and I'm worried about it. But it will be a flare up. I think we just have to view our illness as a chronic illness. Maybe it won't go away but we can live with it and keep being treated. Every day there's new research and treatments. We are here and mustn't let our illness take over. Much easier said than done I know. It's scary but I'm remain g as positive as possible.

Thinking of you.

Hugs. Xxx

[LesleyGreengran]

Great to hear you being so positive, but don't feel you have to be that way all the time. We all need to crash sometime. And how can you look so good in that gown? They look like a sack of misshapen potatoes on me x

[Suzanne333 in reply to LesleyGreengran]

Hi Lesley.

Yes it's very normal to crash. Sometimes I'm strong but times like last week I felt like I'd been whacked with a sledge hammer. I just couldn't pull myself together.

I can't wait to get back to work next year. Will feel a bit more normal. I feel a bit like I'm under house arrest at the moment . The trip to hospital was a nice day out last Sunday. 😂😂😂

Those gowns are horrid but I sort of pulled it tight so it didnt look too much like I was dressed like a sack of spuds. lol

Take care hope you are ok xxx

[harpist_UK]

You look fabulous, Suzanne. Wishing you all the best in your recovery. Get back to normal things as soon as you can. x

[Suzanne333 in reply to harpist_UK]

Hi and thank you. Yes I'm slowly getting back to my positive self. Am out with friends for dinner later so that will be nice. Especially with a glass of vino. 🍷

Hope you are ok. Xxxx

[harpist_UK in reply to Suzanne333]

Living a 'normal' life on Avastin - just awaiting routine scan results and hoping for the best, as we all are. x

[Neona]

Hey you look great! I keep having meltdowns when I see my GP.

[Suzanne333 in reply to Neona]

Hi.

My meltdown was after I saw my surgeon. I think it just hits us sometimes. We are all in the same boat and it's so very normal to have melt downs.

Thinking of you. Xx

[Hidden]

Wow gown of the month, I am sure all will be okay. Be kind and gentle to yourself and put those silly worries in a box and lock it