Hello everyone
Beautiful day out just got back from a run feeling knackered but good for it.
Had a call on Friday from my oncologist secretary saying my numbers are up (ca125) and I've been booked in for an urgent scan this Thursday. Kind of gobsmacked as been NED since Feb 2015 finished Avastin December 2015 had a clear scan in Jan this year and ca125 of 27. I had stage 4 and wide spread but 9 rounds of chemo and big op I was lucky to be NED
Just starting to get back into work projects and now have to explain to my boss in the morning I've got to cancel Thursday when I'm meant to be training 30 people.....😢dreading it especially if everything comes back ok?
I feel very panicked due to the call and swiftly manner of the scan, I'm trying to remain calm but deep down I'm not the fear of putting my family and friends through it all again is eating me away. I know the numbers don't necessarily mean it's bad but mentally I'm struggling. Any advice would be great xxx
I am glad you got out for a good run to work all this out of your system. I know it is upsetting having to turn around to your boss and cancel a training day because of your ct scan. I used think like you but at the end of the day, its our health that is important. You probably do feel stressed waiting for the the scan and then the results. Hopefully it will all show stable. Sometimes we tend to worry more about our jobs than ourselves and do we get any thanks for it, certainly not, Remember we have no control over this illness and our families and friends do realise this deep down. I hope you get out again tomorrow and enjoy some you time. You need this and you deserve it. Take it day by day for the next week or so, and be kind to yourself. Thinking of you and sending you best wishes
Thank you so much, I didn't realise I would feel like this but your right health first. Just got to face the boss in the morning 😀 Xxx
I wish you the best of luck in the morning I know what it is like even though my job would not have been as responsible as yours, But guess what, they managed without me for my second recurrence and my third one. I retired last year because it was retirement age. Your boss is paid to sort out staffing issues.