We had a Macmillan Coffee morning here at work, I didn't arrange it and was fine with it, fully supported it but the oddest thing happened.... I walked into the room and got two steps in and had to make my excuses and leave. I felt like the token cancer victim. It wasn't anything anyone said or did but I suddenly felt part of a club I didn't want to be in and now I feel like crying. I nearly left the office to go for a walk but I didn't and I haven't cried just feel very emotional. How odd. Probably the first time in 8 years I think I've felt like this........ different. God I hate Cancer!