Mum's funeral was on Thursday, and I just wanted to say it went amazingly well. No rain, 86 people attended the small church. I had been dreading the day, but could not have wished for it to had gone better. In my previous mail I mentioned a family friends daughter was going to sing Tears in heaven, only the day before the funeral we had a change of heart, Mum was a happy cheerful person and we all felt the song a bit too gloomy, so Florence suggested Somewhere over the rainbow, which we thought a bit more cheery. But when it came to it she just could not get the words out, I did so feel for her, but clever girl had the foresight to do a recording before the funeral, so we did get to hear her sing. Mum wanted to be buried with my Dad who died 32 years ago, so that was hard. The vicar decided he would say my poem to mum at the graveside and that was the hardest bit for me, my son Gareth was so distraught, but I think because of that I had to be strong for him. He was so very close to his Nan. The poem below is the one I found for my lovely brave mum who I will miss forever, but the words just sum up all of my feelings.
MISSING MUM POEM
I awake each morning to start a new day
But the pain of losing you never goes away.
I go about the things I have to do
And as the hours pass I think again of you.
I want to call you and just hear your voice
Then I remember that I have no choice
For you are not there and now my heart cries
Just to see you again to tell you goodbye
To say Mum I love you and I always will
And hope that much of you, in me you’ve instilled.
The day that you left I just didn’t know
That you were going where I couldn’t go.
And now all my memories of you are so dear
But gosh, how I miss you and wish you were here.
Who now can hear me when I need to cry?
It so hard to tell you “Mum goodbye.”
Someday I know all will be well
And I’ll see you again with stories to tell
Of how you were missed and how we have grown
And how good it is to finally be home.
Until then my memories of you I’ll keep near
And I’ll pass them on to those who are dear.
I Love and miss you Mum,
I truly wish each and every one of you all the very best, be strong.