positivity

[daisies]

Hi.

being treated with Avastin only now, following chemotherapy for recurrent/metastasis O/C. Have been doing well mentally & physically up to now, but suddenly feel down and concerned about mortality as the odds are against me. Any tips or advise on to be feel upbeat again. Daisies

[Btte]

Hi Daisies I to am on 2nd cycle of chemo Carbo/Gem. 2nd dose of G em due on Friday am giving myself injections for 5days to improve white cell count. Feeling unwell and in a dark place for a couple o days now, but told myself I am not so low and tearful as I was first time that's got to be a positive yea ?? ,I have mets. In pelvis and upper left abdo. So new diagnosis peritoneal cancer. I may also have Avastin, this will be decided after my 3rd cycle. The ?being I also have Crohn's disease. Just sending these words to you have made me feel better. Hope you will soon. Love Btte Xm

[poohbah]

Hiya Daisies,

unusual for you to be down because you have been v. positive in all your blogs. I think we all have down times and realistically it is to be expected. Try to take one day at a time until you feel better. At the end of each day I find that sometimes it is good to just think about the things you were able to do and achieve that day and how normal they were. Hopefully, you will realise that you are LIVING and that's what life is all about.

As my treatment is progressing I am feeling more tired and notice that after my 4k walk I usally have a little sleep but, hey I am getting that walk in even though I am not the sleeping during the day type of person. Every little normal achievemtn I have I give myself a little pat on the back and that's how I get through each day. Try to spend some time with people who make you laugh 'cos we need to laugh to lift us from this disease. Take care.

[cath40]

HI you might think my answer is strange but what I believe is if you are having a down day cry let the feelings out feel fed up etc... ring the cancer society helpline and cry down it to them if you need to(I did that !!) . It is very difficult to be upbeat all the time it is ok to let people know this sucks. However, limit these feelings if you can for a day then say to yourself ok had my moment have to dust myself off and try again all easier said then done. I remember when I first got diagnosed the consultant told me it was good to be positive and I was in such shock I thought you got to be kidding me this is awful it sucks. Then I also went through something else where I was afraid to feel down in case it made the cancer worse or something. I remember going to a lecture run by the cancer society where they discussed the emotional effects of cancer and one of lecturers said its ok not to feel positive all the time it was such a relief to hear this. I am not saying become bitter and down all the time but be good to yourself its ok to feel down I find I get the sadness out of me and it makes me feel better. Then the next day I made sure to dig out my brightest top put on the wig and plaster on the makeup go out even if you for coffee and treat myself to something even if it is only a cappuccino. Going out does help I have always been a shopping addict (sorry chemo does not cure that one still not cured ha ha ) so I found comfort in shopping. Thank god I got through it cancer free and 2 years only lost nearly 3 stone in weight my hair is back and enjoying every day. It will get better and I know how hard it is. Take care of yourself.