Is this me overthinking? Or something serious...?

[Wizz_rd]

Hello,

I am 14 and very worried but kinda happy.

I believe I'm asocial (antisocial is the same thing I believe) and I don't like... people.

I plan to live alone, and not have my life affected by none but my close family.

I rarely to never feel sadness, ever since I've been like this.

I don't trust people, especially people in my family that I'm not blood-related to (Aunts like Uncle's wifes etc),or neighbors, I believe that as I'm not blood related to that person or we don't share anything in common, we should't treat eatch-other like family or friends.

I'd rather hang out in my room than stay with people, this was the case when my grandpa had cancer, he was literally in the other room, but I'd rather stay in my room, lock myself into a world that is in my mind.

My opinions are different from everyone's, and i feel like I am in shower thoughts everytime, everywhere,

I am so ...like this:

I don't even plan to get married, even: If there's a girl I like, my brain tells me to stop liking her, as it isn't apart of my plans... This thing has trying me to turn asexual, not attracted to anyone.

This...thing has me thinking of living alone, and thinking of surrogacy if I want to have a child (Surrogacy like: A child that carries the genes of only one person,this case me, even tho the child is carried from another person)

Even tho every second my brain tells me that I'm in the right, and should not post this, as it's a waste of time, I managed to ignore the commands and post this.

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