Help? Intrusive thoughts after wisdom surgery.

[devinp2742]

Hello all, this is hard for me to talk about. But ever since I had my wisdoms removed a month ago. Could it be from the trauma overall? It was a pretty bad experience and got to the point of possibly filing a lawsuit against the dentist. But like 3 days later I’ve been troubling with really horrid thoughts which has caused me to start seeing a therapist. I believe that he helps but it seems like I continue to fight with myself and contribute to the morphing of the thoughts. I have a very understanding girlfriend but I wouldn’t dare to tell her due to her own anxiety and I wouldn’t want to make it worse for her. The thoughts include fear of harming anyone including family. Lately though, they have been subsiding. The other thought started to overwhelm me within the last few weeks and it may be POCD. I just feel like I’m a monster when I’ve always been a happy and caring person. I don’t know what to do. I’ve been doing good this week but this past day or so it’s like my mind is like “Oh so you were finally feeling good. Haha let’s change that.” Any advice would be appreciated.