Constant battle with ocd intrusive thoughts.

[day-dreamer1991]

Hiya

For a few years now i have been battling with my ocd intrusive thoughts, at first i thought i was going crazy and lost all control of my mind, and then with that came great anxeity as i really started to loose who i was, i didnt even know myself anymore and that to me was the scariest thing ever. One min i was enjoying life and the next that one day, and that one scary most vile thought ruined my life in seconds! Every day after that constantly for 2 years i would go over the vile thought from the second i woke up right up until i would get to sleep, my life was taken over! I googled to try and get reasurance but this never really helped. I couldnt tell anyone about what i was going through as i was scared that they would think i had done something bad, and in the end i started to think i really had done something bad, or what if o had done something and my brain had blocked it out. In the end the thoughts become to much, they seemed so real as they rushed into my head along side vivid images! So i broke down to my mum and finally got the support i needed! Never give up! Keep fighting!