fear of faking trichotillomania

[suzietommo]

Recently I have had a dignosis of OCD and show compulsions such as washing and cleaning and intrusive thoughts. I am really worrie at the moment about one of the sudden (possible) traits of OCD. Here is some back information before I explain

-I used to chew my hair every day for five years,leaving it soaking wet every day. I learned to stop before secondary school.

-I have severe health anxiety

Yesterday,I was very worried and stressed and I suddenly had the sudden urge to pull out my hair. I did and then I could not stop pulling all night,even subconsiously. I have carried on doing this all of today when I am not distracted,leaving hair wherever I go. What conserns me is a few months ago I was googling trichotillomania just because I was generally curious and I'm thinking that this sudden urge to pull is just me wanting attention and faking it,as it has come on so suddenly. I am either faking this hair pulling or need help because I cannot define which part of my disorder is real or fake. I'm scared that the recent hair pulling is just my validation for other peoples symphaty or an actual condition,but i cannot tell the difference help!

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