Wow, saw my rheumy today as he wanted to go through the x-ray and ultra-sound which showed active synovitis in my left hand and osteo in right hip. He said he did not expect this to show the active ra which it does show, and coupled with the last blood results (low kidney function again of 33 and anaemic which is apparently caused by active ra) along with swelling etc he pronounced he wants me to go straight on to anti-tnf. Talk about being gob-smacked. I expected a tweek in the pills, but not this. I had sort of put biologics onto the back burner for a few years as I am only 2 years into diagnosed ra but he says we need to stop it getting away from us. He is going to discuss with the rheumy nurses as to which is the best drug and get back to me. I did not realise I was this bad and it has come as a real eye opener, and a scarey one at that. He says no point going down the sulpha, hydroxy etc route as I need anti-tnf now. I am actually quite scared that this stuff is going on in my body, and I thought that the aches and pains etc are just part and parcel. I also thought that it was like anti-biotics ie: take these pills for a week and you will be ok and good to go. Pah, got that one wrong. I know it sounds feeble but my head is all over the place. I know I am so very lucky that I am being treated.... but, gordon bennet, my initial reaction is to go to bed and disappear under the duvet. In a way I suppose I am pleased that I am being taken seriously but I did graciously refuse his offer of injecting steroids under ultra-sound into my left hand. They would have had to scrape me off the ceiling, assuming they could have caught me in the first place! I take my hat off to those of you that have had this done ... I am too much of a wuss! So, will spend this evening giving myself a good talking to and will emerge tomorrow as a normal person. Thanks so much for your support, this is a great site. I just wish I did not need it!! Sorry to sound so pathetic, but I had the future all worked out and it is happening too fast for me to take in, especially when I read the stories you have to tell. I am so lucky ... I think!
Hope you all have a good night's rest .. don't forget your meds!!