Hi long time no blog. I have been reading all the blogs but have felt I have nothing to say but moan and I don't want to do that but I feel that my life is out of my control. Went to see the doc last week and had the news that the muscles in my shoulder are destroyed and I need a new should to go with the other one and both hips. Been out of work for a year now and spend my day reading, writing, watching films and playing computer games. At the age of 61 the world is passing me bye. My ESA money runs out in jan and most of my savings so I am going to find it hard to make ends meet. I am waiting for my DLA to see if I am going to get a higher rate, fat chance, bee turned down before. Had some help with the forms this time so fingers crossed. On the up side I have done all my Xmas shopping and not going to have to cook this year, going down the pub for Xmas dinner. I was so positive when at work, my own man. Now I have no control over the least little thing. Roll on 2013 I think not. Sorry to be so depressing, on the bright side my cat still loves me and greets me when I get up. Who says a mans best friend is his dog, my cat jess is mine.