Yellow,'tis I.
Despite the perky opening to this yer blog, today mainly I am looking for a bridge to go across to contemplate my lot. Ok perhaps it's not that bad, but it's bad enough.
What I am looking for is the person who "half inched" my va va voom !! ??
Hmm see, no-one knows, it just flippity happens. You are going along building on the foundations of all the good tips and advice you have been given and then phlumph, some b****r comes along and sticks a spanner in the spokes, rains on your parade and generally puts the kybosh on it all.
I can't put it down to anything in particular, and not even anything in general. Just feel like a sodditi'mstayingundertheduvet type of feeling.
My bloods be normal, my joints don't ache. I am dutifully taking the medication and doing quite well keeping to the healthy lifestyle stuff. Taking my supplements, exercising, getting some rays (when you can find them) and trying to keep positive. So whassup??
I was wined and dined on Monday (it was Bank Holiday and Mr Silageman managed to get in early enough to go out for a meal). Tuesday, I felt a bit down, probably tired because I didn't go to bed as early as I usually do.
To perk myself up, I went with the lads to market yesterday where we sold some cull ewes, fat lambs and haylage. All good news, money in the coffers.
But by last night I was feeling tired. I really didn't do much else, apart from walk around the sheep pens and sit and talk. In the afternoon I pootled out with the truck and livestock trailer and I delivered a lamb to one neighbour and delivered an invoice to another. Had a good chat and catchup on the family gossip.
Today the sun is really shining - not just pretending - so there is no reason to feel miserable.
Not only do I feel miserable, but I have blooming awful sharp stabbing pains, my arms, muscles, and calfs (calves?), and my feet are a bit stiff. Fingers a bit stiff.
So.... I am waiting for a lady to come and inspect some of our hay in the barn, she wants to take for delivery for some posh horses somewhere or other in Europe. She digs out a bit from the middle of the bale and sniffs it. If it's OK they will take 40 away on a big artic lorry bound for Dover. So fingers crossed, kerching! 
It should cheer me up, but there is no doing it today.
I shall endeavour to persevere and keep smiling. Daughter is off to work, and Mr Silageman and son and heir will not be in now until it's dark - or even later - as we are busy trying to make more hay.
So on that note I shall take my leave and my misery with me, and make myself a cup of red bush..
Tara
Julie xx
If you roll with it, just accept it's one of 'those' days then it passes quicker than any amount of pondering, wondering or fretting will allow. The sun will still be in the sky tomorrow
And not a word about RA..... !! :-)
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