hi, sorry for the depressing post i hope everyone’s as well as they can be.
it’s not so much arthritis related but i can comfortably confide in this group and feel at ease explaining what’s wrong.
i’ve been feeling down and so so anxious recently ever since my TB diagnosis and not being able to start my biologics until it has cleared up, however this past week is the worst my anxiety has been. i wake up everyday with the feeling of dread in my chest and stomach and spend the morning crying to my mum. i’m finding things really difficult and struggling to get out of bed and do my university work.
i’ve got a session of CBT in the next two weeks however this isn’t enough and i cant wait any longer feeling like this. i have been prescribed some new antidepressants which i had worked so hard to wean myself off before christmas. today has just been the icing on the cake.
i’ve tried chamomile tea, mindfulness, rescue remedy tongue drops and still without fail i cant wake up without feeling the dread and tightness in my chest.
this is effecting my uni work and my relationship with my boyfriend and friends, i keep having irrational thoughts and doubts that i cant seem to shake off. my brain is telling me i’d be better off alone.
i’ve been relying heavily on my mum, i don’t like not being around her, i feel safer with her but i feel guilty at the same time for not wanting to see my boyfriend or friends. i feel too anxious and upset.
does anyone recommend what i could do to reduce this feeling?