Hi everyone, this is a very personal post but I feel like here is the place that I know people will understand the health issues and fears I have right now.
I am so so struggling. This day last week my husband left me. I'm now on my own with 2 kids, trying to run a house and hold down a job. I am finding it so hard emotionally and physically. I have had a couple of periods of sickness from work in the last few months and my boss is questioning whether or not I'm fit for my role so I am terrified of losing my job so I can't afford to take any time off even though I'm so tired and so stiff and sore. I can't financially afford to be out of work either now I'm on my own.
One of the reasons he gave for leaving was that I was wasn't making any effort anymore to spend time together, and I'm not going to deny that, I just don't have the energy to be out and about after working all day and caring for 2 kids. Then when it gets to the weekend, and I take my mtx on Friday evening, I usually feel unwell on Saturday and Sundays are spent doing the food shopping, washing and cleaning for the week ahead.
I just am so frightened for what lies ahead, its getting so hard to get up in the mornings and think of facing work, I'm just so tired. I ache from my head to my toes, and feel like I've taken a beating every night in my sleep.
How do I keep going? Any advice at all on anything that has helped people feel a bit easier and less lethargic? Something that is not the obvious rest, because that's not going to happen.
Ps I'm seropsotive RA, diagnosed formally in June this year x