On Sunday I was feeling extremely low and fed up of being in pain , then I get a phone call from my rheumatologist ( yes on a Sunday , I'd phoned him 9 days before as sat in a&e for two hours to be told they can't help me need a specialist as I'd ceased up ) so he says can I help , well what can I say I hit the roof ,🙈. Never on my life would I ever yell at a professional but boy did I yell at this guy . I had for ro the point where I really didn't care of the consequences that followed . I live in severe pain daily all the ra drugs have terrible side effects so what could be worse than all this . I told him exactly how I felt and how disgusted I was at being made to feel like an inconvenience or burden , did he really think I have nothing better to do with my time . If I could find any other way of sorting the ra out I would but everyone always says YOU NEED TO SEE THE SPECIALIST AS WE CANT HELP YOU !. So yes I shot both barrels at him . Feel a bit of a fool now but so pissed off as being fobbed off , I want to get back to being the old me as best I can . Does anyone else feel like this too ??