I left a message here a year ago telling you of my new diagnosis for RA. I was really frightened of what was going to happen to me and on my first visit to the rheumy doc he did all the basics, felt body, xrays, blood tests etc and said he'd let me know his own results if different from my Gp but he seemed to be sure I had it. One year later and I am going for my second visit back to Monklands hospital to find out the results. Over the year I have gone down hill. I am in pain every day and extreme some days. I get cold and feel sick more often and I can't walk very far these days although I've been a good walker and have kept fit all my life.
I do everything to fight against this condition but sometimes it leaves this big toughie in tears feeling so frustrated that I can't lift stuff or open things or turn handles and shake like a junkie if I've been pushing myself too hard. Everywhere just seems to hurt but I think for now I can put up with the pain. For me the embarrassment of trying to lift my shopping on my own and trying not to let others see me shake or not being able to lift my feet or legs properly. The worst is collapsing outside and people walk by and look at you as if you're on something or drunk (wish I was) I wouldn't let their looks bother me so much then.
Maybe I should wear a T-shirt that says "I need helped not judged"
Sorry! thanks for listening to me moan I'm afraid I'm pretty isolated with no one to rant to.