Hey in 5 days time I will be 200 days smoke free, nearly 7 months! Fantastic and well done I hear you say...........could one of you please find my sanity then? I Only wish I could say I felt better but sat here before my morning work alarm is due to go off sobbing into kitchen roll......yes can't be bothered to fetch hankies. I awoke at 4.15 precisely with the usual anxiety that may I add I have never suffered from until these last few months. Have I been back to sleep? Well maybe for the odd 5 minutes but woke up with yet another withdrawal symptom of sweating, yes a girl that's never been much of a sweater lol.
Anyway did I mention any of my other withdrawal symptoms? Like bleeding gums, aching joints and muscles, insomnia, anxiety, lethargy........hey the list goes on! And yes I have put weight on........the joys.
Why did I give up smoking? Partly because I have 3 fantastic, amazing kids and 3 gorgeous Grandkids that I'm sure are very proud of me........but as you all know people forget to tell you after a few weeks of smoking cessation how proud they are and how well you are doing........They don't notice you sneak out for the puff on that stinking cancer stick or notice the stale smell you bring back in with you.
I have seen 4 different Doctors and not one of them has been caring or thoughtful..........sorry but no one said it would be easy was one Doctor. Another said here take these Fluoxetine (new word for Prozac) and come back in two months if no better! Took 6 days worth and was suicidal........no he hadn't mentioned. Off those tablets and back to another Doctor who gave me Zopliclone (sleeping tablets) and signed me off work for a couple of weeks.....he said it was right to stop the Fluoxetine.......No he didn't offer me anything else.
I think I best stop having my rant for now although there is plenty more.
No I'm not a hypochondriac and these last 5 months have seen me nearly completely lose the plot and spend more time at the Doctors than I have in the last 20 years.......we won't mention the 8 weeks I have had to take off work..........the last time I even had a day off was in 2005 when I had to have a hysterectomy.
Sorry for ranting but I needed to because my fella hasn't any patience and generally doesn't seem to give a flying fig about anyone apart from himself ..........once again sorry for ranting lol, needed to get some of it off my chest.