Here we are moving in to month 3....I actually can't believe it, I have been a member here since 2008 on and off... (More off than on if I'm honest) and I have never ever posted in this room or got this far...... My best achievement was 51 days.... Today I am at day 60!! woooooo hoooooooooo:D:D
I know 60 days might not seem a lot to some but to me it is the unthinkable and I am really proud of myself because it's been hard going and several quit attempts to get here...anxiety and depression always kicks in at the 8 week mark and in the past I've just let my quits go..... I have nearly give in a few times this past week but something in me just won't do it....this week has been the hardest for me but I am hoping in 3 days when I get to 9 weeks psychologically things will fall into place.....I want to prove to myself I can do this and STAY quit.
I wouldn't have ever come through this without good people on here, notably, Deb, JohnJ, Lindy, Mina, tangled, Isolde, unag, haze and of course the freedom fighters!! (And others too :))I am actually so grateful to you all, I would have caved for sure without you.....even Max's harsh but wise words early on helped inadvertently
I'm sure there are others like me who pretty much sail through the first 6 weeks and then hit a brick wall, well with determinination AND stubbornness it can be done ;)my next goal is 3 months, now that really would be something.....
It's Monday? Ah so what.... Today, is a good day :) xxxx