TRANSPLANT EVAL FRUSTRATION AS WELL AS RISING BMI

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My kidneys holding steady at stage 4 and renal function a little better. Getting AV fistula in my left upper arm next Monday. Started eval in November. US showed a suspicious mass in right kidney so just had an MRI last week and is a suspicious solid mass that could be renal cell carcinoma. Waiting to hear from Coordinator about seeing a urologist and then more testing I presume. I can't lose weight and am gaining although can't take the furosemide like they suggested, had a couple of accidents. Right now my BMI is getting close to the cut off for a Transplant anyway. I exercise almost every day. I got weights to use for my arms and two different elliptical machines, plus a treadmill, and an aerodynamic standing bike. I try to watch what I eat and am not usually hungry until night, when I would have been smoking while watching TV, but now sometimes eat, try to do fruits and low sodium stuff though. I guess part of my weight gain is metabolism changes from stopping the smoking in April and some fluid, and some just postmenopausal. My husband is on blood pressure pills and doesn't feel like having sex and partially doesn't find me attractive anymore but loves me and will be with me until the end. I don't really care about sex either but my husband is only 46 and I am 55. I came out and asked him if we weren't having sex because of my weight gain and he admitted that was part of it and the blood pressure pills and working so much was another part of it. I guess I should be happy he was honest with me. I am seeing a therapist every three weeks but damn, when will I get good news for a change? Sorry to run on so much but ranting helps!

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Get biopsy results tomorrow. AVF failed. Anyone Else fail first op?

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Start looking for some support someplace else. Obviously, your husband isn't going to step up to the plate and it was just mean what he said about your weight. Try to meet new people and Forge relationships without your husband. Stay in therapy and good luck.