Buttery Delight Nowhere in the Queen's sight

[HipHopQueen]

So it didn't happen my roll recipe sits on the top of our kitchen counter. We didn't buy enough butter so my recipe was the one that didn't get made. I honestly was half relieved it took away the chance of failure, but it also took away the opportunity of glory. Yes yeast roll victory lol.

I finally shared that I need a kidney through social media. There was something freeing and yet scary about putting myself out there. I didn't tell some details but nothing that changes the fact that I need a kidney. I didn't share that my kidney disease was most likely because of my lithium use. Sometimes I hide my mental illness for fear of being judged or discriminated against. I think one day when I feel safe, I will be able to add those details like sprinkles on an ice cream cone.. a few at a time and then more until my whole story is shared.

My fistula arm has been making it hard for me to sleep. The arm is sore I think from me leaning on my arm in my wheelchair and laying on it in bed. I'm a flip flopper. I don't just lay in one position, I turn and move quite a bit. I moved my bed around to get me off that arm when I watch tv. Someone mentioned putting my arm on a pillow. I start out good then I move around. Any tips are welcome.

We've still been eating left over Thanksgiving food but I have had chicken nuggets a few times which isn't my norm but I just couldn't eat anymore stuffing, cranberry sauce or mac and cheese. It was good and my rolls would have set it all off, but a roll without butter, we'll pick and delightful pair and you have the rest. I was hoping this would make me feel better and it did somewhat but I have so many things on my mind. I'm trying not to make worrying a friend of mine. When I finally make the rolls I'll be sure to post them.

[Bassetmommer]

It is no ones business what or why you have CKD or any disease for that matter. But sharing will help others to be aware of the dangers of certain drugs. My main cause of my CKD in the beginning was over use of ADVIL...YES I said the name! It was prescribed by my doctor to take 1800 milligrams daily for almost 3 years. This was before they knew how badly ibuprofen damages the kidneys. I shout it out now to everyone.

Mentil illness has a bad connotation, which prevents people from getting the treatment they need. My stepdaughter is a perfect case. She finally is seeing a psychiatrist and should have done it years ago, but she was living with her mother..... who we believe is the cause of her depression and anxiety. Every day she gets a bit better.

I am too tired of all the food. My body has said ENOUGH. Back to being good again....which I certainly was not. I do not eat meat, fish or chicken, but turkey is my biggest weakness. I ate way too much of it... we will see if I am going to pay for it later.

[drmind in reply to Bassetmommer]

So funny you mention being tired of all the food. Me, too. I was so anxious to have all the traditional foods. But once I had them I realized how unhealthy they were for me. Everything was way too salty and a lot had too much fat. I actuslly was craving my lunchtime salad and soup and cooked veggie dinners. I got back on track right away and left the leftovers for others. It was good to learn that I made some significant dietary changes.

[drmind]

There will always be some people who judge, but it's up to you whether or not it bothers you.

Sorry about the rolls, but it sounds as if there was plenty of good food so it was not noticed they were missing. I always feel that bread and rolls are kind of an overkill when there's so much other good things around.

Best always ....

[horsie63]

Queenie no need to be worried about other people...it's their issue not yours. You got the help you needed at the time. Sucks it caused kidney damage but your mind I believe is the most important organ. I get bouts of SAD in the winters here (OK) cause it gets all gloomy and unlike where I grew up (FL) land of sunshine but I've never had serious issues. My daughter's husband has severe depression and it took him years but now he's finally seeing a therapist and it's helping a lot. You know you can always come here for some good people who support you. And I want to hear about those rolls.

[cs65 NKF Ambassador]

We had to make a whole other turkey dinner the weekend after Thanksgiving because my husband brought home a turkey from the Food Bank! So we're still eating Thanksgiving dinner night after night and I'm gaining weight I don't need! We'll probably make a turkey soup after tonight, it's really good!

I'm so glad you advertised your need for a kidney - you never know if someone will see it and be inspired to donate! I was lucky enough to receive a kidney from an altruistic living donor and I'm about to celebrate my 2 year kidneyversary next month! Take care and keep thinking positive!

[HipHopQueen in reply to cs65]

Thanks cs65. What’s in turkey soup?

[cs65 NKF Ambassador]

Oh, I make it just like chicken soup, but it has a different flavor. First make your broth in a large, deep kettle by covering the entire turkey carcass including any meat left with water and bring it to a boil, covered. Turn down to a simmer for one hour. Then remove any visible fat with a little strainer. While you're waiting for the broth to cook, peel, cut up and wash at least one pound of carrots. I cut them into 2" long pieces and halve the larger pieces. Then I wash and cut up celery stalks and the leaves of the celery into 2" long pieces and halve the larger ones. Peel and cut a Vidalia onion or another sweet onion into quarters. Keep them in a covered pan until you need them. Add all the vegetables and about a scant 1/2 tsp. salt and 1/4 tsp. pepper or season to your taste once your broth is ready. Bring it back to a boil, cover and simmer until all the vegetables are done (probably a half hour or twenty minutes). Meanwhile, make enough egg noodles in another pan for however many servings you need. Serve and enjoy! The soup can be frozen and enjoyed later, too. Oh, I forgot to say to remove the bones and chop up the meat into bite sized pieces before serving into soup bowls.

[HipHopQueen]

I would love this, especially the egg noodles.