So after yesterdays "slip up" today's been much better
So i thought i'd do some self reflecting on why i'm here today, what got me here, and how completing this would change allot for me..
I'm Here as i need to loose my weight, it's become a huge problem, all day everyday i think about it, can i fit there, will it hold me, how do other people see me - growing up i was not big to my knowledge, i think the gain started around high school (11years old) given money and basically spent it how i wanted and not healthily, didn't exercise on in PE which around 15years old i refused to take part so never exercised at all, there was always the occasional jibes from others, but never took them seriously at around that age i favored all the bad food "knowing there where bad" would have huge meals and snack constantly then have takeouts that midnight about 3days a week, when i finished school i was around 17stone, joined college "i was the biggest in the group" after the first year i weight about 18st 7lbs that summer i decided to diet successfully lost 3stone by November 2012 then weighing 15st 7lbs tried to keep it steady but just lost it and couldn't get back on it, then carried on eating like old times, weight kept changing between then and may2015 - thats when i started taking my weight serious My first weigh-in was 19st 12lbs My problem being was i liked all bad foods and i mean ALL there was no limit! i moved from the family home MAR2014 with my twin brother, i thought independent living would help with weight-loss and diet, 1st year i never really took charge, but now i am!!
My adult life i have NEVER experienced being THIN and that's what i wish to do! Just little things like feeling comfortable in my own body, taking clothes off and not feeling self-conscious, fitting well in the bath, not being the biggest in the family, And many many more reasons............
Thanks for reading,