I'm currently feeling a bit down. There's no real reason, or not one I've pinned down as yet.
Taking the medication as usual. It's not the depression I want advice on, it's the impact it has on my thoughts of food!
I'll eat rubbish because that's all I deserve. But I know that's 'all in my head' and a lie.
So, I'm determined to eat a small, healthy portion of dinner tonight (eating at a friends house) and I'm logging everything. I hope this control will help me feel better about myself.
But I am also worried this control over food may lead to anorexia to some extent. I've had it before as a young teenager. Not extreme, but enough. I hate constantly thinking about the next meal and the way I haven't lost any weight so far although I have 1400 calories or under each and every day!!
What to do to keep this mental control in balance? How can I relax about food??