I have some worries and confessions to let out.
I am the first one in my family and friends to be expecting and surely I have no experience of babies. I normally dont find them all-that-cute and if they start crying I run for a cover - literally run for a cover.
My decision of having a baby was more like a casual decision - like ok now we are married and next thing is babies - so lets get it done. The decision was also to some extent influenced by the fact that my husband is 15 years elder to me and is now 43 (oh! what an amazing love story we have Its just the nicest fairy tale where the Prince looking for his princess for so many years finally finds her in a far off land - and she becomes his 'little girl' for the rest of their lives - I just love it)
Also on one side I was (still am) quite curious as how mixed babies look - would they have blue eyes or black - blond hair or black etc.
So ofcourse I never thought of material stuffs, like having a house or do we have enough savings for the baby or can we afford it in terms of time - I am doing my Ph.D and I would be off for field work in a conflict area 3 months after the baby is born - although I think I have an option to take a leave from the University for an year - but I have to finish my Ph.D sooner as well - So, so far I dont intend to - not sure if it changes after the baby is born.
And I certainly dont know what happens after the babies are born - my epic statement during the family dinning on Christmas was - 'ok so the babies are born, we feed them milk, put them in a pram and walk around the city' - everyone in the family started laughing - but i still dont know what was wrong with that statement - is that not what we are supposed to do ? What else do we do with the babies?
I kind of know how to behave with them when they are 13 years (I have a sister who is 10 years younger to me and I kind off handled her in those rebel stage of life so I am quite aware of how to behave with teenagers) - BUT WHAT DO YOU DO WITH A BABY ??
I myself was born and brought up in a HUGE family in a big compound where my grandfather still lives with all his sons and their families in various houses. I had cousins all of my own age and a younger brother who was born when I was almost 4 years - but my mom got sick immediately after and was in hospital for few months - so my grandmaa and the nanny changed the nappies and my mommy when she came back from the hospital only played with the baby -or atleast so it appeared to me - so I grew up thinking that is how babies are raised.
And now I am in this house with my husband alone and no BIG Family and No cousins around and no Grand moms and nannies who are like a part of the family and I feel so lost thinking What do you do with the babies ?
Is there someone else who worries like me - or if there is someone who can tell me (I wish babies come with instruction manual and trouble shooters!)