i am 29 years old, i had first abortion as it was a silent miscarriage, i lost my baby in 12th week of pregnancy (heartbeat stopped) it was a partial mole pregnancy, i got pregnant 4 months later and every thing was smooth, in 21st week dr. said baby has spina bifida and asked me to abort. Knowing the complexities of living with a special child i took a hardest decision of my life and i had pre term delivery. now its more then 7 months i am scared to think about a pregnancy again. as all the tests for me and my husband were normal- genes, chromosomal, karotype etc which could have led to these issues. my doctor says take these as accidents and think about the next pregnancy. As i am young to think about IVF or surrogacy. Also I am an Indian settled in Gulf country after my marriage (3 years) Doctors said the environment doesnt suits me and asked me to move back to my home country. I will be moving back next month. Please suggest..