Hi ladies!!! I haven't been here for a while and now I'm here to have a moan... I'm sorry about that... I just can't keep it all in no more!!!
I have been so stressed so sad these past couple of weeks. I feel really really lost with all my problems!!!
Tuesday my partner has his first follow up appointment since he had his kidney operation (due to cancer)... so I'm a bit anxious about that. Hope its all clear!!!!
Following week Friday I have my 20 week scan... so can't wait for that either!!! I just want to see that the baby is doing well and also find out if its a little boy or little girl.
I'm a bit paranoid as not sure if I'm meant to be showing more bump or not. At the same time I just weight myself and I'm 66kg!!! When I first got weight in hospital I was 60.2kg back in august. Which means I've already put on 6kg!!! I'm about 19 weeks only.
is it normal ladies??
Apart from that I have got so much on my shoulders!!! My life has been so hard the past 3-4 years... I really felt like my baby would be the change of luck that I need!!! But right now I'm feeling so so sad!!! We are under so much pressure financially!!! Big time... I cant even begin to explain ladies...its too complicated...but I just feel sad that doesnt matter how much I fight, how much I work... I still end up struggling every week...not buying a single thing for myself... just about putting food on the table!!
Sorry ladies about the open heart here...
hope u're all doing well
God bless us all x