You are a good person. You did nothing to get this disease, "YOU" did nothing wrong.. There is no rhyme or reason behind this illness. Search for your answer, we all do and to the best of my knowledge, nobody has ever found it. As this disease affects us all differently, we all have a different reason. A justification that we as individuals can live with. I am sure your reason is different to mine and over the years it may change.
Relax, stress a little less. "YOU" have years to live with this disease, make them easier years, do not fight it. Be easy on yourself.
Royce (your ms writer)
you are a good person, give yourself a chance